i miss writing. i think i got so busy and consumed with the the happiness of me getting over the “emo” stage as they say. but well, here i am again, writing, a little sad, and been thinking about a lot of things.
we just finished our mini-magazine and passed it on the eleventh hour. i’m so proud of it. i’ve never been this proud of my work. well, it’s not really my work. we’re in a group and i did some of the articles. i love writing and i’m just so happy of how well it turned out. i think i’m gonna contribute articles in some magazines someday. probably one of the things i’d try before i die. hehe.
hmmm.. what’s up? i still can’t believe i’m on my fourth year in college now. i have a lot of fears, because i don’t have much faith in myself that i can make it. yes, say it, i always put myself down. but that’s true, i won’t argue. it’s just that even though i already love IT, i know that i’m just studying for the sake of studying. this is not what i really do. i keep telling myself that i just need to endure this but i guess i need to find a way to enjoy what i have now. it’s not what i want, it’s not great, but life isn’t long and the more i hate this, the longer i have to wait for what i think would really make me happy and the more difficult it’s gonna be.
how can i get to that mountain if i skip some parts of the map right?
these days, i feel that i am free. for the first time i feel that i’m not bounded by responsibilities of all sorts. why? because i chose to forget about all those things that put me in a box me for a while – just a couple of weeks.. until now i’m still not used to it.. the feeling that no thought, no responsibilities control me. haha! i know i need to wake up from this soon. i can’t decide if it’s a nightmare or a good dream. but i know i’ll definitely learn something from this. i gotta try and do the things that i want to do. and i’m starting now but i know myself and i need to keep grounded.
i keep getting impatient about getting my dreams in my hands.. not thinking that the journey to that dream is the one that matters most. buti nalang i got back to my senses now. haha. i know it’ll happen because i’m gonna make it happen no matter what people around me say. but i have to wait.. i have to wait..
here’s a song that brought me to tears when i heard it.. it’s my life’s theme song now. hehe!
A Goose’s Dream – Insooni
Translation by x3Yesung of Soompi
I have a dream,
Even if Iโm thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart
I have a dream as precious as gem
If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient
I would wait just for that day.
As you always worry,
You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.
Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world
Thereโs the reality that we canโt turn back already
Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life canโt tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, letโs be together
Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life canโt tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, letโs be together
Yes I, I have a dream
I believe in that dream.
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate.
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life canโt tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, letโs be together
Korean Lyrics
๊ฑฐ์์ ๊ฟ
์ธ์์ด
๋ ๋ ๊ฟ์ด ์์์ฃ
๋ฒ๋ ค์ง๊ณ ์ฐข๊ฒจ ๋จ๋ฃจํ์ฌ๋
๋ด ๊ฐ์ด ๊น์ํ ๋ณด๋ฌผ๊ณผ ๊ฐ์ด
๊ฐ์งํ๋ ๊ฟ
ํน ๋๋ก ๋๊ตฐ๊ฐ๊ฐ
๋ป ๋ชจ๋ฅผ ๋น์์
๋ด ๋ฑ๋ค์ ํ๋ฆด๋๋
๋ ์ฐธ์์ผ ํ์ฃ ์ฐธ์์ ์์์ฃ
๊ทธ ๋ ์ ์ํด
๋ ๊ฑฑ์ ํ๋ฏ ๋งํ์ฃ
ํ๋ ๊ฟ์ ๋
์ด๋ผ๊ณ
์ธ์์ ๋์ด ์ ํด์ง ์ฑ
์ฒ๋ผ
์ด๋ฏธ ๋์ดํฌ์ ์๋
ํ์ค์ด๋ผ๊ณ
๊ทธ๋์ ๋ ๋ ๊ฟ์ด ์์ด์
๊ทธ ๊ฟ์ ๋ฏฟ์ด์ ๋๋ฅผ ์ง์ผ๋ด์
์ ์ฐจ๊ฐ๊ฒ ์ ์๋
์ด๋ช
์ด๋ ๋ฒฝ์์
๋น๋นํ ๋ง์ฃผ์น ์ ์์ด์
์ธ์ ๊ฐ ๋ ๊ทธ๋ฒฝ์ ๋๊ณ ์
์ ํ๋์ ๋์ด ๋ ์์ ์์ด์
์ด ๋ฌด๊ฑฐ์ด ์ธ์๋
๋๋ฅผ ๋ฌถ์์ ์์ฃ
๋ด ์ถ์ ๋์์
๋ ์์ ๊ทธ๋ ์ ํจ๊ปํด์
๊ทธ ๊ฟ์ ๋ฏฟ์ด์
๋๋ฅผ ์ง์ผ๋ด์
I’ll continue dreaming.. i may fail at some point but i’ll protect that dream. i’ll make it come true. i know God is there to help me.
– darksphere