frustrated..

i claimed this year to be my year but why are these things happening now? we’re still not done with our thesis, i might not graduate, and Super Junior is coming to Manila for Super Show 2 and I have no money. T___T

no matter how i try to be optimistic of what will happen in the next 3 months i’m so afraid.. of failing again and of missing the concert i’ve been dreaming to attend..

i still believe things will turn out fine..  i feel like my head is going to explode everytime i think of all these problems.. i can’t even solve my postgresql trigger problem. this is just so… frustrating. T____T

no matter what, 2010 is still gonna be my year. it’s still january and too early to say that the rest 2010 will turn out bad.

here’s one of my favorite songs from Super Junior..everything will be okay.. aja!!

Super Junior – Wonder Boy

(Lyrics English Translation)

You can choose your future
The concept of your life
I’m doing well, I’m a fine person.
Trust yourself. Look into the mirror
With the light glimmering around
You as you smile

There could be a sad memories that make you cry
Don’t forget that you have a shoulder to lean on in this world
I have the whole world in my heart…
Lets keep running. For tomorrow, for our future
To become a shining light under the sun
I’m Wonder Boy! Yeah!

He always has a secret but it’s
Easy to find the answers dance with me.
Just move your body to the music.
Don’t be afraid, Girl
You don’t have to fear
Anything except fear itself

There could be a sad memories that make you cry
I’m the one who’ll start and end it.
Let there be light and become a shining star
The sun is welcoming me with rays of light…
I just need one umbrella and that’ll be fine
Don’t hide your tears from me. Yeah!
You can lean on my shoulder and cry out loud
Looking at the crimson red sun setting in the sky…

It’s a spectacle that the heavens have given me
There’s no end. A bright future lies ahead of you
The sun bathes me with it’s warm light under the blue sky
I just need one umbrella and that’ll be fine
To become a shining light under the sun

Lalala, lalalalala, lalalala,
Lalalala, lalalalala, lalalalala

The sun is welcoming me with rays of light…
I just need one umbrella
And that’ll be fine
I’m Wonder Boy! Yeah!

today is bestfriend’s day?

my day kind of started a little wrong. i slept the whole morning instead of studying. i ended up waking up too late to attend my first class so i missed a quiz. i took a prelim exam on business law and i had no sure answer. i was surprised because i thought the teacher said we’re having a quiz today. totally unprepared. pft.

but when i was going home from school, i met my elementary bestfriend. my ride home seemed too fast. i had a great conversation with her whom i haven’t talked to in a very long time. i wish we had more time.

it’s really amazing how friendships stand the test of time. i’m so glad that after many years, the friendship is still intact. when we talk it feels like we’re the 10 year-olds who just worry about our grades again.. i’m so happy that nothing has changed with the friendship we built a decade ago. she’s still the talkative and witty girl she used to be. and she still amazes me.

we may have grown a lot and have had a lot of experiences away from each other but when we chatted it feels like we never left each other’s side. we’re still the simple girls who don’t care about the mean girls at school as long as we got each other’s back. it’s unexplainable how we’ve stayed friends this long though we used to be cats and dogs back then. we’re still unbreakable and inseparable. i hope we will always be.

friends are truly the greatest treasures one can have in this life.

today i met my elementary best friend and had a great chat with my highschool and forever best friend. such a happy day ender.. 2 of the best girls in the world! 🙂

Just When..

I want to get serious, seems like the world is conspiring to get even with me. Argh.

Today I got a good and a bad news. The good news is that I’m going to General Santos City soon.Yay! It’s for my Network Administration subject though and we’re not going there to have sight-seeing but to design their local area network. wow. We sound so professional. hahaha! We’re just going to get pictures and see their current network design and inventory on the networking devices they are using. When we get back here, we’ll use the data we gathered for our paper.Different groups will go to different campuses of MSU System then we will put together all our designs to make the design of the whole MSU System. I’m excited! It’s been a long time that I haven’t been there. I wish I could get to see my cousins and relatives who are living in a nearby town. I’m also excited because it’s gonna be a long long travel by bus. I just love travelling by bus.. Especially the Bukidnon-Davao areas.. *daydreaming on my annual davao trips with family* *sigh* i miss davao.. i miss travelling!

Now to the bad news.. I think I’m not going to graduate this coming March. ㅠㅠ.

I won’t talk about this anymore because I don’t want to be stressed. But still I will do everything I can to graduate. hmm.. now I’m facing the consequences of my laziness.. phew. i hope I can still get a chance.. but if not.. it’s a lesson I must learn..

Okay.. gotta go to bed now. I need to stop thinking about what to do next semester if I don’t graduate this March!

PS. i will try to write more often.. that’s a promise for myself. i need to improve my writing.. 🙂

hmmm.. who isn’t addicted to this song?

– darksphere

It’s 2010

Happy New Year everyone! It’s a bit late I know, I’m sorry. Belated Merry Christmas too.

There’s so much I want to write about my Christmas break/holidays. I had an amazing Christmas break even though it didn’t start so good because I wasn’t able to finish 9 mornings. As usual, it was only me and my sisters who celebrated the Christmas break and with my step mother. In the morning of the 24th everyone was busy preparing for the Noche Buena, then, we attended the Christmas Eve mass and it was one of my favorite masses of 2009. It was a very happy christmas for us and for everyone in the neighborhood, and all of us I hope. The last day of 2009 was quite dramatic for me. I was expecting and been really looking forward to watching fireworks after the mass outside the church but early in the evening it rained really hard so we were not able to go to church for the New Year’s eve mass and of course, I missed the fireworks display. I was so sad about it and since it was raining I thought it was such a sad way of welcoming 2010. But the mood suddenly changed when we started hearing firecrackers and loud music, and the rain slowly stopped. To my surprise we have a number of neighbors too who had fireworks so I was so happy that I didn’t miss the fireworks display after all. Then we Karaoke’d and danced ’til 4 am.

Over all, it was a very fun-filled Christmas and New Year. I have never enjoyed the holidays this much after my mom died and my sister and her family left our house. I guess it’s really true that time can heal everything, and someday everything with fall into their proper places. Also happiness is a choice. For the past Christmases, I always whined about why we are left alone in our house while other families enjoy being together celebrating Jesus’ birthday. Last Christmas was completely different. The 3 of us (me and my sisters) just let everything up to God and never worried about being alone on holidays anymore. I really enjoyed my holidays. And on New Year’s eve after the Media Noche, my year started with a beautiful heart-to-heart talk with my father. It was one of the most precious gift I received for the holidays. Material gifts, my family, fireworks, food, Jesus – I couldn’t ask for more. It was one of my happiest Christmas and New Year ever. Though I still wish to spend my future Christmases with my dad with us and of course, snow. I really want to experience a White Christmas someday!!  I’m so jealous of my friends in Korea who had snow since December and until now. Though of course it’s a nuisance for them because it’s hard to travel to school or work when it’s snowing.

The gifts I received last Christmas were beautiful too (the material ones, I mean). I did not have a list of the things I wanted to receive this year. Before, I always have a list before Christmas even though I know I won’t receive them all. I don’t know why I was like that. Maybe because after a month or years, looking at it and seeing some of those I listed already present in my room makes me feel really happy. I’ve been writing “laptop” on my lists for years and finally I got it on 2008. From the smallest things like toys when I was younger to the laptop and internet connection, I’m glad that slowly they are coming true. hahaha! I think I should start writing “house and lot,” “car” and audi turbocharger next Christmas. I don’t know when I’ll have it but of course I have to work for it. It took me years to be deserving of my beloved lappy you know.

Well it’s back to school now so I’m back to studying and battling with endless quizzes and exams again. Tomorrow I have 2 exams so I need to get started in studying now.

I hope you had a great Christmas and New Year Celebration guys.

Happy 2010 and may we have a happy and prosperous year of the metal tiger! 🙂

-darksphere