i miss writing. i think i got so busy and consumed with the the happiness of me getting over the “emo” stage as they say. but well, here i am again, writing, a little sad, and been thinking about a lot of things.
we just finished our mini-magazine and passed it on the eleventh hour. i’m so proud of it. i’ve never been this proud of my work. well, it’s not really my work. we’re in a group and i did some of the articles. i love writing and i’m just so happy of how well it turned out. i think i’m gonna contribute articles in some magazines someday. probably one of the things i’d try before i die. hehe.
hmmm.. what’s up? i still can’t believe i’m on my fourth year in college now. i have a lot of fears, because i don’t have much faith in myself that i can make it. yes, say it, i always put myself down. but that’s true, i won’t argue. it’s just that even though i already love IT, i know that i’m just studying for the sake of studying. this is not what i really do. i keep telling myself that i just need to endure this but i guess i need to find a way to enjoy what i have now. it’s not what i want, it’s not great, but life isn’t long and the more i hate this, the longer i have to wait for what i think would really make me happy and the more difficult it’s gonna be.
how can i get to that mountain if i skip some parts of the map right?
these days, i feel that i am free. for the first time i feel that i’m not bounded by responsibilities of all sorts. why? because i chose to forget about all those things that put me in a box me for a while – just a couple of weeks.. until now i’m still not used to it.. the feeling that no thought, no responsibilities control me. haha! i know i need to wake up from this soon. i can’t decide if it’s a nightmare or a good dream. but i know i’ll definitely learn something from this. i gotta try and do the things that i want to do. and i’m starting now but i know myself and i need to keep grounded.
i keep getting impatient about getting my dreams in my hands.. not thinking that the journey to that dream is the one that matters most. buti nalang i got back to my senses now. haha. i know it’ll happen because i’m gonna make it happen no matter what people around me say. but i have to wait.. i have to wait..
here’s a song that brought me to tears when i heard it.. it’s my life’s theme song now. hehe!
A Goose’s Dream – Insooni
Translation by x3Yesung of Soompi
I have a dream,
Even if I’m thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart
I have a dream as precious as gem
If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient
I would wait just for that day.
As you always worry,
You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.
Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world
There’s the reality that we can’t turn back already
Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together
Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together
Yes I, I have a dream
I believe in that dream.
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate.
I can firmly face it
One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together
Korean Lyrics
거위의 꿈
인순이
난 난 꿈이 있었죠
버려지고 찢겨 남루하여도
내 가슴 깊숙히 보물과 같이
간직했던 꿈
혹 때론 누군가가
뜻 모를 비웃음
내 등뒤에 흘릴때도
난 참아야 했죠 참을수 있었죠
그 날을 위해
늘 걱정하듯 말하죠
헛된 꿈은 독이라고
세상은 끝이 정해진 책처럼
이미 돌이킬수 없는
현실이라고
그래요 난 난 꿈이 있어요
그 꿈을 믿어요 나를 지켜봐요
저 차갑게 서 있는
운명이란 벽앞에
당당히 마주칠 수 있어요
언젠가 난 그벽을 넘고서
저 하늘을 높이 날을수 있어요
이 무거운 세상도
나를 묶을순 없죠
내 삶의 끝에서
나 웃을 그날을 함께해요
그 꿈을 믿어요
나를 지켜봐요
I’ll continue dreaming.. i may fail at some point but i’ll protect that dream. i’ll make it come true. i know God is there to help me.
- darksphere
