m a i ~ m a i

i welcomed the changes though i did not anticipate them. i believe majority of those are for the better. i’m really thankful. i think i evolved into a new person. i feel renewed. i didn’t know but it was all that i needed. rest, some clamors, a little amount of tears and sorrow, and the people and events who shaped my summer. i’m really thankful. the uber-emo person in me has temporarily subsided. i hope she’ll be gone for good. i wish. haha

but some things remain the same. some bad habits take a while to unlearn. and nobody knows when i will be able to get rid of them.

i’m still the klutzy and lazy fangirl who cleans her room to relieve depression whenever ice cream’s unavailable but a bit wiser now.

i’m still afraid of the future but i have a better vision now. at least as of the moment. lol

i miss the Big Guy of my life. i know i’ve really been drifting far from you as every day passes. i’m sad because of that. i still can’t do it alone. i still and will always need you.

-darksphere